March 3rd was the last day I played on Fantasy Aces, but that's only because I had entered a few lineups the night before. If not for that, March 2nd would have been the last day. I knew I would be sad (to say the least) if I couldn't play anymore but the extent of that sadness is actually surprisingly quite depressing.
With baseball season coming up, I can't even enter into prize/cash leagues because of my location. For all of the time and effort I put into my teams and lineups, whether it be daily or season long, it would be nice to get some kind of return on my investment. I have 5 teams so far with some being with friends and acquaintences and we have something to play for, but it's really more for bragging rights.
The start of this year's NBA season was something I really looked forward to. If you know me, you know that I didn't care about basketball before DFS. I didn't grow up watching basketball games - just NBA finals during Michael Jordan's reign. I also didn't put any time and research before opening night to prepare me for the season. Research started the night before, for the next night's slate. From what I gathered, how could I NOT play Steph Curry for their first game at home after winning the finals?
I learned so much from then until now and it feels like it's been a waste. Lineup construction started with looking at numbers and stats and not knowing much about players and their teams, and what to make of them when a situation comes up - there's actually reasons and a train of thought now, when over the first few weeks that wasn't the case. Nothing mentally challenges me more and that's what I don't want to be apart from.
The last couple of weeks has left me feeling really uninterested in everything. DFS gave me structure in my days.
-Research and podcast listening at night
-Podcast listening in the morning
-Article reading if I get a chance
-Tuning in to Grinders Live
-Going through lineups before lock time
All of these things gave me a sense of time during my day but now I don't have it. I still listen to podcasts and read articles, but it doesn't matter when I do it. I still tune into Grinders Live but it means a little less now since I don't have a lineup built to give to put it into perspective. I keep up with these things in hope I can get back into it, but it looks like I'll have to move elsewhere for that to happen.
Why I want to keep at it is because of all the times I was unsuccessful. I know I can do better. I can be pretty good at anything I set my mind to but that doesn't mean I want to be good at everything. I want to be good (or great) at things that I have a passion and interest for. I don't want to waste my time and energy for things I have no love for.
DFS for baseball season was going to be a big part of my blog, but now I'm not so sure what I have to contribute. Can I really give advices if I can't play? Simple answer yes, but it just won't be the same =(